Sometimes it’s inevitable, and that’s okay. Sometimes your vices will get the best of you for a day, a week, a month. You’re trying. You’re trying to make decisions for yourself that will result in the best progress possible. I … Continue reading My letter to you
My condolences for not recognizing sooner- the value you hold within every tear, every whisper of ‘help’ and scratch on my skin. My condolences for screaming against you when you were teaching me to become a stronger person, for not … Continue reading My Love Letter to Depression
Brain scan completed: February 9th 2019. Results Follow: But first, History. Nearly 3 years ago I collapsed in the shower and suffered a concussion. Little did I know this was the start of what would be a very frustrating 3 … Continue reading Brain Scans and Panic Attacks
How long is this going to last? Is it something that I’m doing wrong? Am I not praying hard enough? Am I too broken to matter? Am I unheard every time I open my mouth? When the world keeps crumbling down on my shoulders, I feel as if I am too weak to handle everything. Why is nothing changing when I’m trying my best to make the world better? I’ve been so shaken with death these last 2 years. It’s started with the loss of a dear friend of mine through an overdose. A friend who I had known from … Continue reading Love through Senseless Pain
How beautiful would it be if we could run away from time? Miles and miles away from our favorite moments changing? To live in our best experienced moments? To sit down and remember every embrace your body ever felt, every safe whisper of certainty and healthy recognition. To remember the milk and honey of your childhood. How safe would you feel if we pause this moment? Everybody wishes they could freeze time in your most precious moments. Well, lets just be content with this moment we have, because it will fade, move to the next moment, and the next. Slowly … Continue reading Beautiful Senses
When many people hear that I have been treated for depression in the past, present and likely to be future they feel sorry for me. Why is that? Why is the stigma that depression is only a negative realm that you can’t escape? Think of it like this, there is a Circle… Which part of the circle does your mind reside? Where we often reside in our minds is in the circle. Circling round and round as to why we have to struggle with the things seem to isolate us from everybody else. We tend to swim in circles and … Continue reading How Depression has Changed my Life, for the Better.
Sometimes when life seems to get the best of you, you just have to take a step back and strip life of all its complexity. You have to take a step back and understand that for life to work as a whole, it needs to include those hard times, those good times, and those times when all you do is lay on the couch and watch Netflix while you waste the day away. Sometimes, the pain is necessary, sometimes it’s not. Sometimes the most beautiful moments are the hardest. When I look into the eyes of the ones I love … Continue reading Lost.